Saturday, March 31, 2012

My Heart Jumps

3.18.2012. Ecstatic. I still can't find the right words for the feeling I felt that night but it may be the closest. I had the most "heart jumps" I could ever have in a single night. I imagined it would be bliss and I would cry. But it was more than that; it was one the happiest and sweetest moments of my life. No, it was not the same as what you see in the movies. It was so far better than that, it was so real.

I was texted by K who is almost my sister if we only have the same mom. 

“Anteh, san ka?”
“Bahay gurla kakagising ko lang may lakad ba tayo? Kikilos na ko if meron, haha!”
“Am bored, let’s watch a movie.”
And then, I quickly prepped up got whatever clothes I’m comfortable to wear that afternoon. We watched Mirror, Mirror I am fond of fairy tales and I like colorful movies; yes still a child by heart. But something was wrong he was sleeping while I was enjoying the movie I think I pushed my friend for about 5 times just to wake up.

“Ok ka lang?? Natutulog ka sayang ticket!!!”

I understand he still haven’t gotten the beauty rest yet because we just had an overnight swimming we went home by 7am that day and then he headed straight to the Feast in PICC which we attend to every Sunday but I was so sleepy I needed to sleep right away so he went alone. We had dinner after watching the movie because I was complaining about my hungry tummy. I asked my friend why choose to watch a movie than sleep and rest I know my friend was awake for I think more than 24 hours by that time. My friend just said “I know!!! Basta!!!” And then we bought ice cream requested by my friend’s sister who just texted.By 9pm after eating dinner, we decided to go home when I got out of fx he also got out of fx,

“Huh?! Bakit ka pupunta samin?!”
“Basta, gusto ko mag- Hi kay Tita!!!” *Fishy fishy*
And then I saw 3 motorcycles near the gate but not in front of our gate but really looks familiar. I think those are H’s friends’ bikes? But no, why would they be here? And then I stepped inside our humble home,

*1st heart jump* 
Mama shouted, “Surprise!!! Happy Birthday!!!”
“Wow may handa!!!” “As in??”
And then to my right, *2nd heart jump*
One set of friends! “O, bakit kayo nandito???”
“Happy Birthday!!!” , “Nagulat ka ba?”
 ”Oo kaya! Sino nagpapunta sa inyo dito?”
“Si Mama mo. Weekday kasi bday mo so ngayon na lang ginawa.”
 “Ganon?? Si Mama talaga???”
I usually go straight to my room to change pambahay clothes but since friends are here for my birthday I stayed at the sala.
And then suddenly, *3rd heart jump* one more group of friends from my room!!! This time with my cake! :)
“Happy Birthday!!!”
“Nandito rin kayo??!”
They got our camera and then I blowed the cake, “Wow, nandito kayong lahat!!!”
One friend asked, “Ano wish mo?”
“Secret!” *sana nandito si :’(*
“Nasan si H?”
“Hindi ba sa Russia?”
“Hindi nasa China na sya.” ~sad deep inside~
My sister was smiling, and then I gave her a questioning stare and she just smiled away.

I was really thinking - I hope my H’s here it would be perfect. Wow, our closest friends are here to surprise me, this is so touching I should enjoy the moment. And then the phone rang, they were asking me to pick up the phone. *Ano to phone patch??! Wow ha? In fairness pwede rin Happy Birthday greeting from China. LOL!* But my friend picked it up first before I got near the phone. She was handing me the phone, but for some reasons I did not want to, I was feeling nervous. And then my sister got the phone, it was my cousin, “Mama, magpapaload daw!!!” *LOL!!! Assuming ka!!!*

And then the phone rang again, this time I picked up the phone.
*4th heart jump* “Hello hon! :) Balita ko may party ka dyan?”
“Nasan ka???” *ang pogi ng boses!!! Hoping he would pop out of nowhere but he told me it would still be a week before his flight*
“Nandito pa sa bridge nasa China port pa rin po kami.”
*Ok asa ka kasi* “Ah ok. Meron handa, nandito silang lahat. So talagang sa 24 pa uwi mo?”
“Sino nandyan?”
“Silang lahat, sina…….”
A friend asked, “si H yan??? Nasan na daw sya???”
I turned to my left to face my friend who asked. “Nasa bridge duty nya, nasa China.”
And then, for some reasons our friends were shouting or whatsoever. So I covered my ears so I could hear my boyfriend well.

And then he said, “Hon..”
“Hello?” *ang ingay*
“Hon! :) 
For a moment I thought I heard his voice clearly like it was not just coming from the phone. But no, he reiterated he’s still in China at the bridge doing duties. Friends sounded like they were excited, what’s the matter?
*5th heart jump* “Aaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!”
He was suddenly at my back!!!! Oh my gosh!!!!!! I knew it!!! I was so sure it’s not on the 24th!!! He was hiding all along inside brothers' room. He was holding a bouquet of bougainvillea flowers which he got from our small tree, LOL!!! I so missed this humor!!! I was laughing and punching his shoulders asking him why didn't you tell me, and then realized the bigger picture…. *this is so sweet* I was speechless I couldn't say anything to him I was just smiling, looking at him, I missed him so much. He gathered everyone here to surprise me, I was about to cry when everyone said,
“Kiss!!! Kiss!!!”
“Ayoko nga!!!” *nakatingin kaya kayong lahat?!*
“Kiss daw hon!! :P”
Waaa I missed him, so much!!! :’) I missed this kulit voice, kulit make face. I really wanted to kiss him but I still have the senses that everyone was staring haha! So I just hugged him felt his lips at the top my head. We were hugging, staring, hugging and staring for maybe a few minutes. Our friends were kind enough to give us a moment to feel the “finally we’re together” moment.  I swear I was about to cry. *and I’m controlling my tears right this moment I’m typing this, errrr!!!* *ok breathe* Going back, my little brother handed him the microphone,
*Huh? Why give him the mic?*
And then someone said, “Speech, speech!”
He started to say some words, “Oh my gosh! Bakit ka magspeech?? Hahaha! Bakit ka magspeech??!”
“Eh gusto ko magspeech eh bakit ba?”
“Ganon?! Hahaha! Sige bahala ka!” And then my little brother gave me the other mic, *huh?!*

“Hon, mag 8 years na tayo… 50 to 60 years from now tayo pa rin…”
“Oh my..” Suddenly I felt cold sweats, cold hands, nervous, waaaa more of this and then I’ll have heart attack!!!  I’m sure he was feeling the same he was also sweaty. He even joked, “Akala ko madali lang to, nakakanerbyos pala!!!” And then a sound of laughter broke some of the ice. But it wasn’t enough, I said “Ako rin, ninenerbyos sayo!!!” *Ano ba!!! Ano ba to!!!* Both feeling nervous we just hugged and stared again and again and then when he looked like he could speak again…

*Heart stopper!* He got a small box inside his pocket, knelt down on one of his knees, opened the box I know he was still uttering some words but I was like in a different world I couldn’t understand any of what he was saying my hands were colder, I was just staring at him. If friends were telling me to say anything, that I’m not sure of, I did not hear any. Is this really happening right now? Can someone pinch me? Someone slap me? I’m sure it was a blank few seconds I was just staring at my man. Did he really ask me to marry him with everyone watching? Our friends and my family? Did they hear it as well? Is he really kneeling in front of me holding a precious box? Or I would wake up in 3, 2, 1…
“Hon? Yes or No?”
*Aaaahhh!!! Wait lang!!!*
Was I staring for too long now? “Y-y-y-yes-s-s-s” “Yes.”
In my imagination I could have shouted that word but no, it was stocked!!! I couldn’t say any word!!! My loud, kulit and talkative character were all washed away by the magical moment. This was the moment I should shout the big YES but I couldn’t say it in words but in my mind I was shouting, “YES!!!” I was feeling cold and a little numb or nervous whatever that feeling was good thing I was sitting if I was standing I’m sure I would ask for a seat that moment. Tears formed in my eyes while he was placing the ring to the rightful place. And then a kiss to seal the moment. :) I had the sweetest moment in my life I could not ever imagine. It was far far better than my imagination of how my feelings would be for the moment. Haha! Yes I imagined it already..  Who doesn’t, right? 

And then after giving us some time to breathe in the moment, our friends surrounded us  saying how happy they are for us.. gave us the handshakes, excited smiles and warm hugs.
All puzzle pieces complete now, why K pretended to be bored, whose motorbikes are those, why they kept on asking me when would H come back just so I would not think they know.

And I now have my fiancée beside me. :')

All these would never and could never happen if we were the only two persons who cares for this relationship. It’s so heartwarming to feel that there are more than just the two of us who is willing to invest effort, time and sweet memories for this bond we have. I may not be in the best look I could be for the moment but I wouldn’t want it any other way. The moment was so real, genuine, and authentic. I was so me and he was so he.

It’s so perfect; the memories were shared with our friends and family.  And I’m sure a part of my feelings was also felt by theirs. Happiest Birthday to me!!! Thank You God for giving us people like them as our blessings I really appreciate having them in our lives. You did not only give me a special someone to love, You also gave me friends and family to share with me a happy life! They are the best gifts you ever gave me.

While I was busy watching the movie some were busy at my back to surprise me. Going here and there to buy food, buy the cake and all else needed. Some had short notices but still went quickly to our house just not to miss my special moment, some haven’t slept yet, some has work early the next day but they did it all for me. A connivance of friends my spoiler powers failed to break. I love them all! *sniff sniff*

P.S. Papa was not here of course but he asked permission first from my Papa and Mama if they would allow him to ask me for marriage. Just Perfect. :')


  1. Hehehe i really imagine it lyc nakakatuwa naman! Pag nagkita tau i would not ask, i'll just smile and congratulate u, super happy, for u and harold hehehe :)

  2. big AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW for this. i almost cried while reading it.

    happiest birthday nga naman talaga diba? :-)

    God bless you and Harold. :-)

  3. :) felt like i was there in the moment reliving it.<3 -tel