Sunday, September 11, 2011

The Awkward Blackout

Algebra time, if my memory does not fail me, last subject for the day. I was listening to our teacher when my eyes began to see blackouts. I thought my eyes were just failing me cause I did not wear my glasses. But then, I felt heavy on my chest and it was hard to breathe. Ok, just close your eyes and then breathe slowly maybe you're just dead tired of all the lessons for the day. But then, I felt cold and then my classmate in front of me looked at me maybe because she heard my heavy breathing, "Waaa!!! Ang putla mo!!!" And then I couldn't find my energy to respond back. My classmate told our teacher, and I was told go to the clinic. "Ayoko po.", was the response I could only say because firstly I didn't want to go to the clinic besides it's only a few minutes more until dismissal and secondly I don't have the energy to walk to the clinic even if I wanted to. And then our health officer approached me so she could accompany me to the clinic, suddenly I could hear bees around me. I couldn't understand any of the words they were saying, I was not sure if they were talking to me or they were talking to each other. As soon as I tried to walk my knees were too weak I managed to go out of our classroom but on the middle of the walk to the clinic which seemed so far that time I think I almost fainted, did someone catch me? Yes, someone helped me and carried me to the clinic... For a few seconds, he carried me but as soon as I realized what was happening... Ooopppss awkward! "Wait lang, wait lang kaya ko na maglakad." But really, thanks to you, you're really such a good friend and my hero for the day. And wow, of all who has concern you were the 1st who stood up to carry me, thanks friend. =)

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Oo o Hindi?

3rd Year. Kamote, mas magaling pala sakin to sa Math! Kaya naman pala nalipat samin, yun naman, ok fine! Nagtataas pa ng kamay para magbigay ng sariling formula! Minsan nga ang epal na eh! Nang-aagaw ng eksena habang nagtuturo teacher namin. Nangugulo ng formula ang hirap na nga ginugulo pa! Pero di naman umabot sa Division level sa Math Quiz Bees nung elementary days kaya di kami nagkita haha! Pero wag ka seryoso to magmahal, hmmm.. crush lang HS pa lang eh.. nakita ko na to umiyak dahil sa crush haha! Kwentuhan namin tungkol sa crush nya ako taga-tawa lang. May time pa, pag nakakasalubong namin crush nya kunwari di nya kilala para raw di sya masaktan ok pagbigyan pero paglampas pwede na ko tumawa hahaha! Sus seryoso masyado! Ako nga sabi ko sakanya ayoko magkabf ng hs pa lang eh! Eh kasi sa nakikita ko parang laro lang sa iba ayoko ng ganon kahit makulit ako kahit hindi ako mukhang nagseseryoso sa mga bagay pag nagkabf ako buhos to kung buhos noh! Hanggang crush at silay lang ako. At saka ayoko ng classmate na manliligaw nakakailang, o kaya pag nalaman ko na crush ako hindi na ko masyado nakikipagkwentuhan, ayoko din yung close friend ko na lalaki may gusto sakin. Hindi kasi sya yung una kong kaclose na lalaki meron pa nauna nung 1st year kaso nahaluan ng ibang bagay eh. Kahit ako yata non tinablan eh bawal bata pa ko kaya iwas na lang muna sa mga ganon na feelings hehe! Alam nya lahat yun sinasabi ko rin sakanya mga gusto at ayaw ko sa lalaki pag nanliligaw o kaya nagpaparamdam. Alam din nya kung ano gusto ko sa lalaki gusto ko malinis tignan saka may angas! Saka plus factor yung marunong maggitara! :) Pero parang may bubuwag sa promise ko sa sarili ko na ayoko ng bf ng hs kasi hindi na lang sya ngayon tumintingin sa labas ako rin may tinitignan sa labas may naghihintay sakin, maangas, hindi ko kaklase, marunong maggitara, matalino. Gusto ko sya, gusto nya ko. Parang super qualified eh! Pero ready na ba ko? Sasagutin ko na ba sya? Sya na ba?

Monday, August 8, 2011

85th

I thought of blogging months ago but I was hesitant because I know for sure I'm just going to write down cheesy blogs, all about love, all about him - mostly if not all. I don't know if that's okay because as sure as my heart is, as sure as my mind is - all things are possible in a positive and in a negative way. All I know is I want some story to read someday. I'm not sure if this blog is ever going to have a happy ending and if my kids would read some inspiring story someday or a hurtful story. But then again here I am speaking out my mind or my heart or my mind? Whichever, I love him. I've always wanted someone who would always make me feel loved - And I'll give it back twice. That's how I perceived what would my relationship be someday. I wanted it to be serious, my heart is fragile. I'm a hopeless romantic, I thought of having my first and last boyfriend - if that's ever possible (still possible as of the moment). I wanted it to be perfect but I guess that word was created for definition purposes only. As for me, I don't need a robot. I love him dearly. Who would have guessed that the guy who's scratched out from my standards the first time I saw him would be the perfect imperfect love I would cherish for 85 months now? It's not always happy. I had moments of crying and questioning if it's ever gonna work. But he's everything I need, I want, I love that I even also hugged the painful distance.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

New Friend

Okay, so the re-sectioning written exam got us mixed a bit. I guess you can look at it as having new classmates and having new friends. Err, but no new seatmate for me! I was alone at the back, sometimes good because I could sleep when I was dozy and eat when I was hungry without getting caught. But being alone at the back was never a problem I can go along well with anyone even with the boys. I was the cowgirl-one of the boys, so whoever wants to sit at the back during break times, I can easily talk to them about anything. Well, that's if they talk to me first because it was never my part to start a conversation unless he or she is already a friend to me. Some of them just sit at the back because of the hype of not staying where you should be sitting. Some just to talk to me but there's one who always wanted to sit beside me just to look at the girl outside, unfortunately, she was transferred to the other section. Lucky for me I did not have to look outside just to see my crush. We had conversations from then on mostly about how much he liked her. Ironically, my other girl friend who was also on our class liked him so I could only listen and not say anything.

Hindi ko talaga inexpect na may resectioning pala kaya nagulat ako nung nalipat nga ako. Pero ok lang naman din. Napunta ko sa class na karamihan ng classmates ko eh pala-aral eh tinatamad na nga ko mag-aral eh. Kaya nangyari non napapasama parin ako sa mga tropa ko sa ibang section non. O kaya uupo lang sa may pinto, magmumuni muni. Pero nung tumagal dun na ko umuupo sa dulo ng room. Madalas ko na siya makausap non, yung girl na nakaupo dun sa likod. Kinukulit ko sya tungkol dun sa crush ko na classmate nila nung first year, pero hindi naman dahil lang don. Masaya rin talaga sya kasama saka kausap. Bihira lang naman kase ko magenjoy sa company ng ibang tao. Pero ewan, parang minsan nagugustuhan ko rin sya. Pero hindi ko lang pinapansen. Minsan sabay na din kame umuuwe kase nalipat sya malapit samen. Tapos nageenjoy na rin ako to do favors for her. Pero steady lang, hanggang dun lang. Pero minsan pag kasama nya yung iba parang ayoko, gusto ko ako.

Monday, July 25, 2011

First Impressions

Year 2001. Start of sophomore year. Heard we'll have new classmates. Ok, at least most of us and my friends are intact. I looked at them one by one and formed my first impressions inside my head. There was this guy he looked like he did not really want to be in our class. His uniform was not smartly worn. He was not neat-looking. One of those boys who are happy go lucky I guess. Not one of those that would make me look at them for at least three seconds just for the sake of staring. That's all I can think of whenever I try to remember how he looked when I first saw him sometimes I even laugh whenever I think of it not that he looked funny, it's because I'm laughing of how mean my First Impression was, he was "not neat looking, average, not my type".

I wasn't really expecting that I'd be transferred to the other section. But on the first day of my second year on high school, I found out that I'll be on the first section. When I was in that class, I'd still hang out with my friends from the other class. I didn't really get along with them very well at the start I felt like I was surrounded by geeks, nerds or bookworms but eventually it got better. There was this cute girl, or should I say small girl sitting at the back. She has long wavy hair, average height, average body, average girl. She didn't really get my attention. I can barely notice her. But there are some times that she really looks nice, but during that time, she's not my type. I liked someone else, and I found out, that they were friends.