The Long Jeepney Ride

3rd year. I think our whole school would be having an activity if I'm not mistaken there would be an intersection contest. I was supposed to ride the 1st jeepney with most of my classmates but H told me to have the next ride and wait for a few more minutes for my last classmate. Turned out our other classmate would still need a little more time he was still busy with some other stuff. So, we decided to go ahead. We were three that time. Me, H and another guy friend. We were heading to a friend's house to have some practice, don't really remember about what.

He kept on staring at me.
Feeling awkward I asked, "Huy! Ano? Bakit? May sasabihin ka?" 
He smiled and looked like he wanted to blurt out something but stocked.
And then the other guy laughed. "Hahahaha! Wala na kasing sabit eh no?"
"Ha??" I asked.
"Basted na si.. diba??" 
"So? Oo. Bakit?"
"Gusto kita eh."
"Seryoso ka? Hahahaha! Ewan ko sayo! Che! Hahaha!"

And then the whole jeepney ride was silent. I think he understood my reaction he did not bother to ask more about anything under the sun which we easily and normally do when we were together because we were so comfortable and we normally had free flowing conversations not until that day. I felt like the jeepney ride was taking too long or I just wanted to get out.

The second I stepped out of the jeepney, I felt like I don't want to have conversations with him for now or until tomorrow or until next week. Basta. Ayoko muna sya kausap. Alam naman nya na ayaw ko sa friendship na may halong feelings tapos gaganon ganon sya. Bahala sya. For some time, my girl friend noticed my actions why we looked like we don't get along well that for days so I told her then she understood right away. That's me, friendship over if feelings get mixed up.

For days or weeks he went to our house but I said some excuses that I can't let him in. Some days we did not talk, but I figured he's the friend I would like to keep so I decided to forget about what he said and act like he did not tell me anything. I think he felt the same way so in time we were comfortable again and talked about mostly about anything. He redirected his feelings to another person, he told me about it again and then everything went back to normal.

New Friend

Okay, so the re-sectioning written exam got us mixed a bit. I guess you can look at it as having new classmates and having new friends. Err, but no new seatmate for me! I was alone at the back, sometimes good because I could sleep when I was dozy and eat when I was hungry without getting caught. But being alone at the back was never a problem I can go along well with anyone even with the boys. I was the cowgirl-one of the boys, so whoever wants to sit at the back during break times, I can easily talk to them about anything. Well, that's if they talk to me first because it was never my part to start a conversation unless he or she is already a friend to me. Some of them just sit at the back because of the hype of not staying where you should be sitting. Some just to talk to me but there's one who always wanted to sit beside me just to look at the girl outside, unfortunately, she was transferred to the other section. Lucky for me I did not have to look outside just to see my crush. We had conversations from then on mostly about how much he liked her. Ironically, my other girl friend who was also on our class liked him so I could only listen and not say anything.

Hindi ko talaga inexpect na may resectioning pala kaya nagulat ako nung nalipat nga ako. Pero ok lang naman din. Napunta ko sa class na karamihan ng classmates ko eh pala-aral eh tinatamad na nga ko mag-aral eh. Kaya nangyari non napapasama parin ako sa mga tropa ko sa ibang section non. O kaya uupo lang sa may pinto, magmumuni muni. Pero nung tumagal dun na ko umuupo sa dulo ng room. Madalas ko na siya makausap non, yung girl na nakaupo dun sa likod. Kinukulit ko sya tungkol dun sa crush ko na classmate nila nung first year, pero hindi naman dahil lang don. Masaya rin talaga sya kasama saka kausap. Bihira lang naman kase ko magenjoy sa company ng ibang tao. Pero ewan, parang minsan nagugustuhan ko rin sya. Pero hindi ko lang pinapansen. Minsan sabay na din kame umuuwe kase nalipat sya malapit samen. Tapos nageenjoy na rin ako to do favors for her. Pero steady lang, hanggang dun lang. Pero minsan pag kasama nya yung iba parang ayoko, gusto ko ako.